Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Such wonderful variety!


One of the many things which I appreciate in life is the vast variety amongst all species, including us. Recently I have been especially mindful of that. I've picnicked with a group of Turkish Muslim people who have enriched my life immeasurably and wept as one of the families moved on to another place.

This past weekend I spent several hours at the East Lansing Folk Festival where I saw and/or spoke with people from all over the world--really interesting people. (I wish others would notice what an interesting community this is, instead of grousing about it being "dull". It's only dull if you're not really looking.)

Among the nicest people I've met, is Scott Harris, who started Everybody Reads Bookstore in Lansing almost five years ago. We spent several hours tending his book display at the Festival and when not talking with Festival-goers, we were deep in meaningful conversation about all sorts of things. No shallow "where did you get that cute hat?" sort of talk for us! We dive deep! I so admire someone with the courage to offer the community a local bookstore/gathering place, particularly open to those who might be overlooked or rejected in other settings. By the way, to put in a plug, the store is on E. Michigan Ave. next to Gone Wired Cafe', which is also a neat place to hang out. If you care whether Lansing has any independent bookstore (this is the last one), please consider visiting it and spending some money, too. (I do not have an financial interest in the store!)

The variety in the rest of nature is amazing, as well. The view from the large window above my computer desk is less than spectacular. In fact, in earlier years I rather hated it. After all, it was just the house close next door, their yard, and a bunch of trees. That was how I "saw" it. As time went on, however, and I became more contemplative I began to see the beauty there--the colors, the shapes, and the wonderful sky.

I planted a butterfly bush near this window several years ago and it has grown large enough that the branches are visible to me as I write. It is loaded with lovely lavender blooms. That would be rich in itself, but it attracts all sorts of creatures--bugs, actually--and today I've made the acquaintance of a large Tiger Swallowtail butterfly. From tip to tip it must be at least 5" wide. It's been around all morning, along with several bees and some small white butterflies. I have a bird's eye view, so to speak, as they drink from the tiny blossoms. For some reason, the squirrels and birds aren't so visible today, but yesterday there were two rabbits in the yard, one huddling in the deeper grass (yes, I need to mow), thinking I didn't see it, or hoping so anyway.

Of course, there are my two cats, as different from each other as can be, and my little Tessa dog, who is unusual to say the least. After a long period of not accepting her, the cats have finally come around, sort of. It's so cute to see Willie run down the sidewalk next to Tessa (they are about the same size) when we go out in the morning. And often, Nellie is looking out at us from my bedroom window.

I think of my dear ones and the amazing people who visit my home for spiritual sustenance and guidance! Each one is unique, yet they/we are all so similar. Isn't life something, folks? Even if you "don't got religion", on a day like this it's pretty hard not to give thanks to Someone!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Here's to Lake Superior, Split Rock Lighthouse, and the wonderful hours of love we shared in that place!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Happy birthday, Grandma!


It's August 1. Many say how fast the summer has flown, which is my usual thought as well. But this year, maybe because spring burst forth so early, I'm feeling like it's a long summer. Not that I'm complaining, mind you. It's especially wonderful when I take Tessa out first thing in the morning--the cool newness of another day, the birds chattering, the verdant smells, the side light of the sun in the east. I rejoice!

My maternal grand-mother, Nellie, was born on this day 134 years ago. I pay tribute annually to this magnificently strong, faithful woman, who never allowed the anguish of life to get her down for long. She didn't have the greatest marriage ever, was a widow for many years, had problems with her kids, struggled to make ends meet. Not unlike most of us now. Except in her day making ends meet meant literally having food, clothing, shelter. Not whether you could afford countless toys such as Wii or I-Phones or GPS systems. Nellie would truly be appalled at the state of things now. One of my hopes about the after-life is that if souls are aware of this plane, they are so wise and have such a broad perspective, they don't get upset about it.

I wonder how it is that we fall in love and with the best of intentions start out to make a life with our partner. Everyone is so excited about the wedding and the future. For far too many, not only does the light dim, it often goes out completely. And where did all the hope go?

Norris and I had our share of difficulties, but the light never went out. It feels like it now, though, with him being gone so long. At times, I find it hard to remember exactly how he looked or spoke. I'm always grateful when those realities are clear to me once again. One of the most difficult things about being a widow is keeping my mouth shut when those with partners complain about them. Yes, I know, I always have had trouble keeping my mouth shut! But, sometimes it's very tempting to remind them that at least they still have a partner. I understand their feelings. I complained, too. And it's cliche' to point out that we don't appreciate what we have until we lose it, including our marriages. It is not easy to be alone. I'm feeling that especially as I realize next weekend will be our 45th wedding anniversary and he won't be here to celebrate.

Well, enough mid-summer self-pity. Here's to Nellie and all the wonderful Grandmas who loved us in spite of ourselves. May she truly rest in peace!